10 years ago, he was still a puppy. Barely 3 months old, he was brought to our house with a price of a packet of sugar. It was his home, until now. He's with God now, I'm sure...
"Oh where, oh where could my baby be,
The lord has took him away from me,
He's gone to heaven so I got to be good,
So I could see my baby when I leave this world"
Silky isn't the best dog around. As soon as Muscle craves for mommy's attention, Silky would threaten to attack him. Thus, poor thing would retreat. Mommy has too much love to give. I know she loves them all equally. He'll be given a treat regardless. And stupid Silky would be scolded for misbehaving. After all, Muscle was supposed to be the big bro around, since he was here the earliest. Too bad, Silky is the big bully around.
After getting his daily treat, he'll get back to his job. Scout, watch, and bark. Yup... He could bark well. Loud and clear I'd say. For so many years, I wished so many times that I'd give anything to stop him from barking. But I only noticed it now, that I miss his barks. I was wrong, I know... But it's too late now.
So, mommy and bro would leave to work. And he'll be tied back to his place. Being unable to move all over, he would just sleep. At 8 a.m, bro and sis would be leaving to work. He'll be alerted for a few minutes, bark a minute or two, then he'll go back to sleep. He's always like that. Super good actor I can say.
At 12 p.m, mommy and daddy would be home from work. He'll start barking to show that he has been a good boy! He wasn't lazy and he has been guarding the house as we weren't home.
Muscle.. Muscle... We always knew you were just acting. But we would never disown you regardless you could guard the house or not.
Mommy would let him run around for a few minutes so that he could do his business. Then, he's back to his place. He was always happy even if it means running around for a few minutes. Muscle... I know, I know... No one likes to be tied to a place for such a long period. But we have no choice. After all, who asked you to always run out of the compound when you were released? Stupid boy...
Then, he'll sleep till 5 p.m. And he'll start his barking frenzy. Bark, bark, bark = Daddy! Bring me out!! Muscle dear... We know you well. If it was not raining, you usually get to go for a round. After a short round, daddy would bring you back and let you rest. For you have exhausted yourself, you would sleep till 7 p.m, when everyone would be back one by one.
On days that you get to run around, you would usually be quiet. You usually hide underneath the cars. And I am always annoyed by that fact. Can you stop hiding underneath it every time after we bathe you? From a golden Spitz, you turn into a Bengali Singh. What the hell man! But on days that you don't, do you have any idea how noisy you can be? Neighbors always complain about you... And we are always worried about you being complained. It sucks if you get caught and thrown into SPCA.
Every now and then, you will bark when you see lizards, birds, cats or anything that moves. What is wrong with you? And should I even mention on rainy days? You would totally go berserk. Even i was bitten by you once upon a time ago when thunder was striking. Scared is one thing. But do you have to lose control every time? You stupid boy..
Once in a while, I'll go home late. There you'll be, waiting to bark at me. And even anyone that goes home late. Anjing jahat... Buat bising saja. But I never thought that now without you waiting for us to come home, it makes us feel lonely. You aren't there anymore to greet us.
With you barking all the time, you keep thieves away. You make me feel safe. Without you, it's just different. Also, remember that time the Golden Retriever ran into our house? You actually dare to confront him despise him being more than twice of your size. I can always remember that time when he chewed off a part of your fur. You lucky dog. But you stood there when all of us went hiding into the house. Your loyalty is unmatched. I knew, I always did.
So, that's what you usually do. Then you'll guard the house until 2 a.m. Daddy would go to work, and let you run around the compound. And that was your day. For almost every single day, and it lasted for 10 years.
I never knew that that night, that would be the last time that I touched you. And in the house, that would be my last glance of you. You were making lotsa noise. But I just couldn't tell what do you want. So, I just looked at you, and I went to bed. If only... Oh no... No ifs... I know there's no turning back.
For all the days you barked madly, that is just you trying to ward bad people off.
For all the days that you whined, that's because you want to get things to eat.
For all the times you misbehaved, that's because you wanted the attention that you don't get enough.
For all the times that you roll on the floor, that's because you wanted the human contact that Silky get, and you don't.
For those days that you refused to be tied back and you run like a mad dog, that's because it sucks to be tied to the same place all day.
For those days that you actually threaten to bite, that's because you know if you don't, you'll get a good beating from us. And you know you deserved it. =.="
For those times that you stare with your puppy eyes, you melt my heart.
For those times that you wag your tail, I know you are happy just to see any of us.
For those times that you lick us, we know that you love us and you'd give up your life to protect us.
For those times that you scratch us eagerly so that we'll touch you, we love to hold you too.
Muscle.. Can you come back please? I know it's not possible. But I really do miss you. I didn't bathe you for no reason. I didn't love you just because you were obedient. Why did you leave without saying goodbye?
