Anal retentive

I know I've been double-posting lately, but I can't help it. I do not have enough time on daily basis to blog. So, I have to keep everything till I'm free, and post all together one shot.

Recently, I was informed that I am anal retentive. I was like "What??!! Anal what???" Thanks to Joyce for explaining, but I'll just post the definition here.

It wasn't too long ago that I sensed something was not so right with me. Why am I paying attention to such small details? Why is it irritating me? Why am I the only one that feels something is wrong with it? Well, the answer is all here. Because I am anal retentive.

The term anal retentive (also anally retentive, anal retentive or simply anal), commonly abbreviated to, is used conversationally to describe a person with such attention to detail that the obsession becomes an annoyance to others, and can be carried out to the detriment of the anal-retentive person. The term derives from Freudian psychoanalysis.

Oh yes, I know I have irritated a number of people already. But really nice of you people to not tell me. Btw, it could also be linked to obsessive-compulsive personality disorder.

Obsessive–compulsive personality disorder (OCPD) is a personality disorder which involves an obsession with perfection, rules, and organization. People with OCPD may feel anxious when they perceive that things are not right. This can lead to routines and rules for ways of doing things, whether for themselves or their families

Although I highly doubt that I have OCPD, there might be that chance. But then again, I think even if I have that disorder, mine is only orderliness.

Orderliness (also called neatness and tidiness) is a personality trait which involves the organization of things into a state of order and symmetry in the world, as contrasted to disorder and chaos. Orderliness is associated with other qualities such as cleanliness and diligence, and is generally considered to be a desirable quality.

Orderliness, and the associated desire for order and symmetry, is considered to be positive. However, an excessive desire for orderliness can be associated with obsessive-compulsive disorder. Freud associated excessive concern about orderliness with what he referred to as the anal, although this theory is now generally regarded as obsolete.

I think I'm not that that bad yet. Cause there are things that I can still tolerate. Such as dirty/untidy place that I do not use/go. The very least is I just let them be and I don't touch it. Imagine me going around the house screwing everyone's place. By then, I think I'll have plenty of enemies ad. =P

Oh yes, gonna blame mom here again. Honestly, I'm one small anal if you want to compare me to my mom and my bro. It's like BIG anal, MEDIUM anal, and i happen to be SMALL anal. Yes, it runs in the family, and there is nothing much that I can do about it. But I think I do more good than harm being that way right? XD (Trying to be less anal ad.... Gimme some time k?)

And I'd like to apologize here to everyone, if I've pissed you off for anything I've done and said for me being me. Not the best me, but trying to upgrade to Wilson 2.0 here. Tunggulah!~

The last paper for my degree

This 13th of November, some might recognize it as Friday the Thirteen, I'll be having my last exam in my degree life. This post is actually for future references, as this post will remind me of how happy I am to be exam-free for the rest of my life.

(Disclaimer: This post will be deemed useless the moment I take masters, pre-requisite test for some big company, or engineering license)

Right now, waiting for the last exam to come, I feel that nothing matters much anymore. I'm actually looking forward to join the society in their working life. I know those that are working would definitely tell me "Studying is wayyyyyyyyyyyyy much better than working." Yes, I actually know that. But try to have a dad that is not supportive in your education. All I get from him is "I think a degree is enough. You should start working soon. When are you going to finish your degree?" I know it's probably bad and unfilial for me to say these things out, but I can say that I'm very very disappointed with dad's attitude. Obviously, he doesn't care about my education. Oh yes, my decision to start working is made when I was so sick of him telling me that. I know I have not been the best son, and I've proven many times that I'm a spoilt brat. But then, I'm the last one and the only one studying. Do I really waste a lot of his money?

Mom is actually not agreeing with me not doing my masters. But all I can say is I'm sorry, I can't stand unreasonable nagging anymore. He doesn't want me to waste his money studying, then fine, I'll wait till I work and I'll do it on my own. I am actually old enough to be doing that. So you people that have parents forcing you all to study, study and study, be grateful. Not many people have that.

Okay, okay, no more complaining. Back to the topic. I'm really happy now, and it feels good. Maybe in a few years time, I'll come back and check this post. Most probably by then, I'd be so unhappy with my working life, working my life and soul out, tired and beat down, sucky boss and colleagues, low salary and high expenses, and all the shits that are about to come, this will definitely remind me of how happy I was. Yes Wilson! NO REGRETS IN YOUR LIFE! PEOPLE NEED TO GROW UP AND GOING INTO THE WORKING LIFE IS A PART OF GROWING UP! SUCK IT UP AND JUST WORK!

Hopefully that'll work for future me. =)

And if all shall fail, just go get your masters la.

Christmas came early!

This has been an extraordinary week for me. It's been such a long time, but things are finally getting better and better. Guess what? Christmas came early for me! Okay, not exactly 25th of December, but most of my wishes came true! And yes, I think my bro do read my blog. Unless he's Matt Parkman.

So, shopping without the sale has made me ended up with some stuff overpriced stuff. After scouting my favourite shop a.k.a. Padini Concept Shop, I decided it's time for me to get a new tie. This is due to my old tie went m.i.a. Stupid black tie, don't even know where it went missing. RM 89 flew away. But then, Padini doesn't have much to offer for this season. Tried looking for many, but the normal ones just couldn't catch my attention. Until....

Oooh.... Yes... The Special Edition tie!

I kinda like it, though I believe some might think it's a bit too "old". It's recommended by the sales lady. And the material is very nice! So, I bought it, but it's more expensive. *Ouch*

So, back to the topic, things are going pretty smooth for me. Don't mind me for doing this:

XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD

LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL

=D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D

I am indeed very very very happy.

Good luck to everyone around me. My lucky streak is back, hope it'll last till at least after exam.

December, faster faster come!

Gosh.....................................................................................

The day started well, and I ended screwing it up. Damn me... The next time good me vs bad me, I'll definitely side th bad me. XD

Sad la... My phone is an obselete model! They should really really stop throwing 2nd hand hp to me ad. Waiting for December! Think I'll finally able to buy my 1st ever phone! Keeping my fingers crossed.

Anyone interested in donating to my iPhone fund? I accept donation in cash and/or credit card.

Happy Halloween

Happy Halloween people! Ya ya, I know I don't celebrate Halloween, and most probably none of my local friends celebrate this festival. But, I just have this urge to wish everyone. This Saturday might be one of the few happiest Saturday in the past few months for me.

Since months ago, I kinda hated Saturday thanks to my loving bro. Thanks to his laziness, I'm forced to work at the market as he refused to help my parents out. Being me, the "siu yeh" and I'm half a hygiene freak, I really didn't like going to the market. But of course, I knew I had to. Cause one family can not afford to have that many black sheep.

But for once in so many months, I woke up on Saturday... HAPPY!!! OMG!! How rare is this occasion? I felt like the world is finally going the way I want. Really.... Although I know this won't last long. Would most probably take him one week to be lazy again. But WTF right? Enjoy while I can.

For once in a long time, I thought I could finally get a new phone. I don't mind if I had to pay for myself. I really really don't. But then, my dreams came to an end again. After trying hard to try to get myself a new hp, I failed badly. Trust me, don't ask me what reason did my dad give to just to stop me from buying a decent phone. The reasons are absurd. I practically had to turn off my listening button so that I would not scream "Don't be ridiculous!". But like what Optimus love to say, "Fate rarely calls upon us at a moment of our choosing". My fate is out of my own hands. So once again, I shall be a second hand hp user again.

Please don't say things like "Go and buy yourself la!". It obviously didn't and won't work for me. He won't allow me to waste money to buy a decent phone cause there is extra second hand hp. Damn damn damn!! But hey!~ Look at the bright side! I need not to pay a single cent. Guess I should stop complaining la. Wait till I start working ba, then I'll decide what phone I'd want!!

But back to today, it had been quite a great day. Least I know I'll have a phone to use, my bro is finally doing something right, I've conned my sis into buying half a gallon of 31 for me, great meal at Zanmai, and bought some clothes. All in all, it's a great day. (Ignore the part where I complain bout the hp, this blog would be a happy blog)

Secrets

New and addictive song. Very inspiring too... I guess people should all come clean, and make life simpler.

Secrets, by One Republic.

I need another story

Something to get off my chest

My life gets kinda boring

Need something that I can confess

Til' all my sleeves are stained red

From all the truth that I've said

Come by it honestly I swear

Thought you saw wink, no

I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear

Something that were like those years

Sick of all the insincere

So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line

Don't care if critics never jump in line

I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My god, amazing how we got this far

It's like we're chasing all those stars

Who's driving shiny big black cars

And everyday I see the news

All the problems that we could solve

And when a situation rises

Just write it into an album

Singing straight, too cold

I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear

Something that were like those years

Sick of all the insincere

So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line

Don't care if critics never jump in line

I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame

Got no family I can blame

Just don't let me disappear

I'mma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear

Something that were like those years

Sick of all the insincere

So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line

Don't care if critics never jump in line

I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear

Something that were like those years

Sick of all the insincere

So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line

Don't care if critics never jump in line

I'm gonna give all my secrets away

All my secrets away, All my secrets away

Present and future

I think I'll give it a try with writing a poem. =P I know it's gonna sound stupid, but who cares right?

I'm lost somewhere along the road,

shall I pick a car, a plane, or a boat?

For I am in a great mess,

to hope for my future, what would be the best...

I knew I have lost my way,

none could notice how I sway,

the path that I've taken,

now it is shaken...

Fear has gotten the best of me,

clouded what's in front of me,

for it has made me indecisive,

and now I'm submissive...

Since I was toddler,

yes or no it doesn't matter,

for my thoughts are considered minor,

the one that would listen, is the boy in the mirror...

Have you ever heard me say no?

If it's a yes, I haven't told you so,

it's always easy to say yes,

because that's what people like best...

My friends would have heard those,

hearing my 'no', as my mind oppose,

shall it be ignored,

or shall it be heard?

"I thought you're a yes-man?" you would ask,

have you given me a chance to pass?

Could I say no, could I be bold?

For my true friends, it had been told...

I have given in to many things,

for the future, not knowing what it brings,

but I know a thing,

like a song I'll surely sing...

Where would the road end?

"Ahh, I know!" I would pretend,

all I wanted was not to burden,

I have given up the chance for the road to broaden...

I have given in, once again,

all of these to undo my sin,

I had been unfilial, and ungrateful

to repent, I will be careful...

I'll not be Paris,

or be a menace,

to fulfill their dreams,

is all I should ever dream...

Thus ending the thoughts of the selfish me,

for a bigger picture, that's what it will be,

not to sound honorable or anything,

but happiness is what I shall bring...

I had this flow in my mind, but if I'm gonna continue writing, it will be a super duper long long long poem. Anyway I'm a noobie, so please don't criticize that much k?